30 Seconds Inside My Brain

Just today, a part of my brain said, “It’s January 12. You are behind schedule.” Emphasis on you and behind.

I said, “Who’s schedule?”


When the new year commenced, I didn’t make a single promise. Not one. That’s unusual for me.

For the last number of years, I’ve had a reading goal on Goodreads. A Word of the Year. Various other resolutions and goals. Despite the fact I didn’t set any blogging goals last year, at some point, I settled into a once-a-week post.

This year. I’m too tired for resolutions, but we are twelve days in. I reserve the right to change my mind. Maybe February will be my month. I am open to the possibility of miracles. I’ve resolved to be kind to myself.

When my inner dialogue started harassing me about writing a little something for the blog, I took offense. I don’t like to be told what to do. Even by myself.


I wrote the post anyway. Then remembered why.  

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54 thoughts on “30 Seconds Inside My Brain

  1. Hey trhere world famous teacher, I’m a ruuner and sometimes the most important day of training is a rest day. the same can be true of writers Just make sure your rest day is a red clown nose super doddle day. Jerry


  2. I felt pressure to have made certain personal decisions by January 1. It came and went, and I still didn’t have anything firmed down. Like you, I took the pressure off and over the last 12 days, things have developed all by themselves–a word, a devotional plan. Or, in the case of one thing I was trying to work out, I let the idea go. After all, I am retired. I really don’t need to start a daily house cleaning schedule. We are not messy, and I can recognize when something is past its “due date.” In your case, you have a tough year ahead. Health issues that make you tired. Trying to keep up with a bunch of active teenagers, some ready to learn, others not so much. Your family. Do give yourself grace; rest when you need to. Let some things go. Usually if they are important they will be around when you are ready to deal with them. God bless you in this new year.

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  3. Thank you for sharing!!.. taking time to rest is a part of the process, gives you time to browse your book of memories, gather more memories with another and smell the roses.. and perhaps follow Rose Milligans advice;
    Dust if you must, but wouldn’t it be better
    to paint a picture, or write a letter,
    bake a cake, or plant a seed.
    Ponder the difference between want and need.

    Dust if you must, but there is not much time,
    with rivers to swim and mountains to climb!
    Music to hear, and books to read,
    friends to cherish and life to lead.

    Dust if you must, but the world’s out there
    with the sun in your eyes, the wind in your hair,
    a flutter of snow, a shower of rain,
    this day will not come round again.

    Dust if you must, but bear in mind,
    old age will come and it’s not kind.
    And when you go, and go you must,
    you, yourself, will make more dust!
    (Rose Milligan)

    And above all “Don’t be pushed around by the fears in your mind. Be led by the dreams in your heart.” (Roy T. Bennett )… 🙂

    Hope life is all that you wish for it to be and until we meet again..

    May love and laughter light your days,
    and warm your heart and home.
    May good and faithful friends be yours,
    wherever you may roam.
    May peace and plenty bless your world
    with joy that long endures.
    May all life’s passing seasons
    bring the best to you and yours!
    (Irish Saying)

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  4. Speaking of the calendar’s inflated self-importance, how’d I manage to miss January 12 by three whole days?

    It’s only natural, as we lavish a single day (January 1) with undue significance, most feel a need at that time to make fresh promises. Perhaps idealists and dreamers even more so than others.

    Why, Crystal? Isn’t improvement constant? Thus, resolution is dynamic, ebbing and flowing as events do. Our determination powers it forward – around, above and beyond life’s events. That’s the crucial factor, not some space on the calendar.

    Besides, Crystal, from your single promise – kindness – all other progress grows.


    1. Blogs do work better on a schedule. The 12th didn’t align, nor did the time of day. Still, to post or not to post? A post is progress. And look at all the kindness that appeared in response, including yours. Thank you, Keith! Have a great week!

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  5. From time to time, we all need to have a little talk with ourselves. We are often our harshest critic and only 12 days in, we need to resist the need for sudden major course corrections, when perhaps just a slight adjustment in direction will do the trick. Happy Monday Crystal. Allan


  6. I love your breezy attitude, Crystal. I think you’re more likely to catch the wind of the Spirit under your wings that way! Every now and then I remember what Jesus told Mary of Bethany after she anointed him with nard–to much criticism (Mark 14). Jesus said, “She did what she could.” After a busy day of taking care of others with items still left on the to-do-list, it’s comforting to remember: “I did what I could,” and rest in that.


  7. You’ll know when you’re ready to set any goals for yourself … mine was about a week before Christmas. I knew what I wanted. Since then I’ve been taking some time to figure out how to get there. Baby steps; small achievable objectives to focus on rather than massive overwhelming goals.

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  8. I’m in the opposite boat this year! In years past I haven’t made resolutions but this year I have. Mostly to do with professional stuff… Like my cut flower business. I’m so excited for this adventure


  9. I’ve never been one to set resolutions. Life has taught me some invaluable lessons about flexibility and patience. Crystal, may you continue to be blessed these fascinating 30 seconds.


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