Tuesday was the day. The much-anticipated day.
For the past few months, I’ve followed doctors’ orders. On a medical trial for the purpose of eliminating the need for breast cancer surgery, I’ve taken the endocrine therapy intended to shrink my small malignant tumor, and I’ve waited. On Tuesday, a slew of tests and appointments awaited: an ultrasound, a CT scan, an MRI, blood withdrawals, a COVID examination, and a visit with the radiation oncologist.
Sure enough, the real-time sonographic imaging measured a 20% decrease in the volume of my irregular hypoechoic mass with indistinct margins. The medicine that I’ve hated for blocking my hormones has finally done me a favor. It shrunk my tiny tumor, which means no surgery for me. Why can’t I say that with a little extra enthusiasm? This is such great news. Oh wait, my hormones. Going, going, gone. I wonder if I will ever feel like myself again.

For now, I stay the course with the medicine. I tell myself no feeling is final…words have power…God has my back. On Wednesday, I start my radiation, five rounds, every other day. The end. Over and done. And then I wait. Again. I let it all happen and just keep going.
3 For everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven: 2 a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 3 a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4 a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 5 a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 6 a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 7 a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 8 a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8
Sending love and thinking of you as you go through this
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Thank you, LA. This too shall pass. Now to live each day.
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I continue to hold you in my heart wishing you well. 💞
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I appreciate any extra heart holding and well wishes!! Thank you, GLW! 💖
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This is good news, Crystal! I love your outlook. Nothing is final. God indeed has your back.
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Good morning and happy Saturday, David! Thank you so much!
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Great news. Good luck with the rest of your treatment. 🙏🙏🙏
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One day at a time. Thank you. Thank you!
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Wonderful news! Sending good vibes from Wisconsin 😉
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Good vibes received! Thank you, Rhonda. I’m celebrating. It’s a quiet celebration.
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Thanks for sharing your journey Crystal. I imagine it must be very challenging, but you seem to have a good attitude and faith. Kudos on the good news.
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A good attitude and faith are the same in a way. Both are a choice and a process. Thank you, Brad!
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You’re welcome. Hugs…
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Sending healing energy to you..
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I believe in healing energy. Thank you, KA!
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Hang in there. Hope, faith, and happiness.
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Thank you, Roxanna! I appreciate the extra dose of hope and faith and happiness and kindness!
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Yay! Good news and I’m happy for you. Love the video, The Byrds had a marvelous sound.
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I don’t know how many times I had heard this song before I realized they were singing Ecclesiastes 3. As a matter of fact, I’ve referenced these verses before, and a reader told me. Marvelous, indeed. Thanks, Ally!
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The thing about there being a time for every purpose under heaven is that time marches on. I believe you’ll eventually feel your real self again.
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Right? Acceptance is key, but I’m learning that acceptance comes in waves. First, the illness, then the treatment, then the side effects…
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Hope and a positive outlook go a long way towards aiding healing Crystal. Sending hugs and best wishes. Allan
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That’s what I hear, Allan. Thanks for the love. Once I had official news of shrinkage, I felt free to whine a little.
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late cros and ecc 3 may you be well
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Amen. Thank you!! 🤍
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I am happy to hear the good news. But I also understand the road is still not easy. You are in my prayers. 🙏♥️
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Hi Bridget! I appreciate you, my friend. Thank you so much—and especially for those prayers—and especially during my rounds of radiation from Jan. 25-Feb. 3. 🙏🏻🤍
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This seems like good news!! Thank God that the tumor shrank. Now praying for strength for you through the next step in treatment. Four of my closest friends have gone through this and all but one, who had late stage breast cancer when it was discovered, have come out the other side and are thriving today. Seriously. It is not easy but will be praying for you every day❣️🙏🏽
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I believe in the power of prayer and draw strength from your words. Thank you, Dear Ellen. I have no doubt I’ll be okay. It’s just making it there without wishing my life away.
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Well, I am really, really glad it worked. You’ll make it there and maybe you’ll find you can do it without wishing your life away. I hope so. Will be praying! 🙏🏽
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Oh wow, that’s great news. Sounds like a big decrease, that’s awesome. I know with loved ones close to me, it can be such a big challenge waiting and taking it step by step, but you are so right, “to everything there is a season.” Such a wise approach. Sending you prayers and best wishes on this journey and that soon you “will feel like myself again.”
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Thank you so much, Brian, for the kind words and prayers. Waiting is hard. I suppose I’m learning patience, or at least that’s the end goal. I’m definitely learning humility.
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Best of luck, Crystal. My thoughts are with you.
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Thank you, Neil. Much appreciated! 🤍
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What a positive update! Certainly, when one’s hormones are out of balance, it can throw anyone for a loop. Prayers to you that the radiation goes seamlessly. I hope you’ve got a good support system of family and friends in place.
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Hi Pete! I believe in prayers and appreciate yours. Thank you so much!
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Sending hugs and warm wishes, Crystal. You are doing well on this journey; keep reminding yourself of this! 💕
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A little affirmation goes a long way. Thank you, Jane! 💖
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So glad to hear that the first round of treatment worked in shrinking the tumor. Know that you are in my prayers as you undergo radiation treatment in the coming days ❤
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I’m a little worried about the fatigue, because I’m already fatigued. I’m going to try to keep working every other day through the radiation, but I have the option to take all the time I need. So, thank you very much for praying with me, Rosaliene!!
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Love and prayers to you my friend. I think you’ll find you will become a new self. Can you get anymore bad-ass though?! Lots of positive energy coming your way for the upcoming radiation treatments.
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Julie! I love you! You’re always good energy, and I feel it now. Thank you, my friend.
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Wonderful to read good news! Your attitude is an inspiration. May it continue, along with your family and friends, to carry you during the challenging moments. You are a beautiful light! 💖
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You are so kind, and your words lift me up. Thank you, Michele! ✨💖✨
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😇🙏🏻 I am glad. 😊
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This is great news Crystal!
I wrote my post “Crack in the Ceiling” during my radiation…maybe it will give you some inspiration. 🙂
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Thank you, Jo! For sharing in my good news and for sharing your experience. 🤍 I’m feeling hopeful.
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Praise God for the shrinkage in the tumour size. Keeping you in my prayers Crystal. May the Lord’s healing hand be upon you and may the cancer be completely gone. May he pour his strength and peace as you continue to navigate this. And may you feel his presence and comfort on days that are not easy.
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Amen. That’s perfect. You have a gift for prayer, Manu. And when I don’t have the words for myself, I will come back here are reread yours. Thank you, my friend.
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Hello Crystal, You’re in my prayers. Peace and love. Jerry
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Your words comfort me. Thank you for that, Jerry. Peace and love to you!
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Awesome news!!!!😊
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Thank you, Tiffany!! 🤍
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I am sorry to hear you must do the treatment. I did my radiation for a month a year ago and I am glad it is behind me. I hope your treatment will soon be behind you and you can look ahead to a beautiful spring with flowers and birds in your yard. Hugs, David
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I know you know, David. Maybe I’m slower than some to come to terms with all aspects of the yuck. I’m getting there. 🤍
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Big, beautiful, squeezing hard, and full of complete love HUGS to you, Crystal. You are goodness, you are LOVE! It will be gone. 🤗❤️😊
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I feel that, Dwight, so much so that a pair of tears squeezed right out. You remind me again that a little affirmation goes a long way. Thank you! 🤍
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A wonderful, happy development, Crystal!
Still a little bit to go before this is all resolved, but you just took a big step forward, my friend. All that’s happened over the past year has overwhelmed your emotions and it’ll take a while for the good news to sink in. Plus, the positivity is slow-release, energizing a smile each morning.
You’re strong, Crystal, and you’ve proved yourself more than equal to the challenge. You call upon family, friends and faith, too, and all rejoice with you and prepare to exult.
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Beautiful bolstering, Keith. Thank you for cheering me on and up. Your messages always do that for me. 🤍
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I am so happy that the first treatment worked, Crystal. Now onto the next stage of treatment. Sending you healing thoughts and prayers. You can do this. K x
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Thank you so much, Kerry. Life keeps showing me I can do hard things. 🤍
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Sending you an ‘attagirl’ hug!
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Praying for a complete recovery, Crystal. You’re right . . . God has your back.
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Hi Mark! I appreciate you for that. 🤍
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I wish you didn’t have to go through this, Crystal. You certainly don’t deserve it. But I know you’ll handle it with the same grace in which you live. Sending love.
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Debra, your words touch me. I suppose I’m learning whatever will be will be. 🤍
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Wonderful news as we start out a new week. I am so happy for you. I will be praying for you as you go through these next steps. The music you shared is a favorite of mine. I also am currently reading For Everything a Season by Phillip Gulley. He is a Quaker minister who is a good storyteller. This is a gentle book of essays/short stories with remembrances of how things used to be. I use a chapter each night to clear my mind ready for sleep. I have also read his Front Porch Tales which is also good. Blessings, Crystal.
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Thanks for those kind words and prayers, Linda. That’s a coincidence about your current read. I haven’t heard of Gulley, but I’ll keep my eye open for his work. 🤍
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Praise the Lord!🙌🏼🙏🏼❤️
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Hi Melissa! Yes! 🙏🏻🤍
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I’ve been keeping you in my prayers. Stay strong and remember that you are never alone, God is right there always by your side.
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Thank you, LRHB! This means more than you know. 🤍
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Ah … your faith saves you with helping hands along the way. To life!
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Yes! Thank you, Perpetua. To life!
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One of my favorite passages in the Bible for sure. You got this, Mrs. Byers! You’re one of the most resilient people I know.
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These words from you especially encourage me, Patricia! Thank you so much. 🤍
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AND A TIME TO BELIEVE that all will be well. I went through my cancer scare almost two years ago. Praying for you Crystal and Thank God for your good news.
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Amen. I believe it, Belladonna. Thank you!
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I believe!!!! Showering you with healing vibes, hugs and praying for you to have blessings on blessings on blessings 🙌🏽
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Crystal, thanks for sharing your positive news. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. God walks with each of us.
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Good morning, Richard! I appreciate your well wishes and prayers, 🤍 and I feel God’s presence. Thank you!!
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Thank you for sharing!!.. glad that the medication is working and you are winning the battle.. hopefully it is a indication of better things to come… “Victory is not always winning the battle, but rising every time you fall” (Napoleon Bonaparte).. 🙂
Hope your life’s path is paved with love and happiness and until we meet again..
May love and laughter light your days,
and warm your heart and home.
May good and faithful friends be yours,
wherever you may roam.
May peace and plenty bless your world
with joy that long endures.
May all life’s passing seasons
bring the best to you and yours!
(Irish Saying)
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Thank you, Larry. I like the Napoleon quote. Rising now. 🤍
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I’m reading this now, knowing you are done with the treatments! Bravo! When will you get the results? As they say, God is in the details…Hugs, C
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I don’t think I’m waiting on results, but maybe I am? I follow up in March. Leaning into the details. ❤️
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You are so right! There is💕
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