I sat down at my computer to write with nothing particular on my mind. Just an exercise in making the words appear. There was an open Word document, my unpublished memoir titled Help in the Time of Schizophrenia, 248-pages needing revision and a publishing house. Honestly, I’m not sure how to go about that—the publishing. I know about developmental editors. I have a couple of contacts. Have I reached out? No. Publication remains a mystery. Maybe I’ll crack the code on my upcoming summer vacation.
When I finished my MFA last spring, one of my professors advised me to put my manuscript in a drawer and step away and read more and write more. That’s exactly what I’ve done until now. So instead of writing something meaningless today, I sat and reread and tweaked my words for what seems like the millionth time. I stopped on page twelve. 236 pages to go.
But, after twelve pages and a year, I felt better, much better. Through this break, I’m finding my authentic voice. I’m asking myself, “Would I say that?” I’m tightening the language. I’m adding details.
As for blogging, it’s more about writing practice—making myself do it vs. perfection. As for writing better, it’s more about the revision—root word vision—prefix again. Now I’m literally seeing the words and the story in a new light, letting go of what I once thought grand, finding holes in my storytelling. And maybe, just maybe, I’m inching my way to the goal.

Good luck with your revisions, Crystal. I look forward to reading the completed project!
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Thank you so much, Priscilla. Me, too! Slow and steady.
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I feel you, Crystal. It took many years to publish my memoir and eventually I self published on Kindle. I got some great reviews but after one three star review, I never looked at the comments again. Sometimes I wish I had rewritten again but your Margaret Atwood quote is right on the button. If one person enjoyed it – that is kudos enough.
I worked for the National Schizophrenia Fellowship in Scotland and know that there are never enough books about severe mental illness. BTW, my own psychiatrist, in Texas, recommended my book which touches on mental illness, to his own patients. You are a wonderful writer so don’t hesitate when you feel ready. Terrible writers make millions on ghastly books such as 50 shades et al!
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You touched the key point, Kerry—when I feel ready. I’m still navigating the inevitable obstacles of writing so personally. I appreciate your support! What is the name of your book?
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It is also okay if you are never ready, Crystal. I found it a painful yet cathartic process.
This is a link to the book – it might be free on Kindle Unlimited.
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Thanks for the link, Kerry! To catharsis! I hope to read this one soon.
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Happy Easter!
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Writing is a lonely journey. Precisely because it is so personal and desolate. There is no way of knowing if readers will like it or not; if it will be an immediate success or a legacy flagship that was never commercialy relevant for its time. We write because it our mandate, our prerogative and our passion. We write for ourselves before others. It is a labor of love.
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Yes! There are certain problems in my writing that only I can solve. That’s the hard part. However, I’m fortunate to have friends who write. I meet one group for coffee nearby and another one online since we’re spread across the country. It helps to bounce ideas around with people.
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Indeed, it is necessary to have the support of fellow writers. I am still in my early days, building a network and support base. Looking forward to reading more of your work!
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What a thoughtful comment – clearly personally observed.
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Good for you Crystal! I’m your biggest fan! We need your work out in the world! Go, go, go! 💕C
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From you, Cheryl, this means more than you’ll ever know! Thank you!! ❤️
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A potential publisher that comes to mind is Jessica Kingsley Publishers: https://us.jkp.com/pages/write-for-us
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Hi Ashley! I appreciate your inside knowledge so much. Thank you!!
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“I’m finding my authentic voice. I’m asking myself, “Would I say that?” I’m tightening the language. I’m adding details” is exactly why I enjoy the revision process so much. As for publishing, I’m with you. I’m stymied. Yes, I know how to craft a proposal and have done so for two of my books, but I’ve never gone beyond that. What am I “afraid” of? Hmmmm….. The memoir of my relationship with my mother I did publish on WordPress at http://www.rosesintherainmemoir.wordpress.com a few years ago. There it sits for all time.
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I’m not sure I realized you have two blogs. When I click your link, I find your epilogue, but I can’t seem to navigate my way to Chapter One. Maybe you can help? Anyway, I relate to the fear. It’s partially about not wanting to be judged for how I handled things and partially not wanting to hurt anyone through my story.
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Most of my blogging work is published on a garden site: http://www.invitationtothegarden.wordpress.com
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This is the site I automatically connect to. I need to figure out how to follow your other site.
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And I need to figure out how to help you do that.
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It’s a relief to hear a published person who has a masters in writing say she doesn’t have everything writing related figured out. I read an article once about Harper Lee. She was so frustrated by her umteenth tweak of “To Kill a Mockingbird “ she threw the whole manuscript out in the snow! Her agent had to convince her to bring it back into the house.
One thing is certain, becoming a better writer means writing a lot—even if you’d rather not.
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I’m so thankful for my school experience, and especially for the feedback my cohort provided. Still, so much of writing is about reading like a writer and writing more. I always knew I liked Harper Lee.
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I forgot how reading good writing helps one become a better writer. For instance, I notice you vary the length of your sentences–even on your blog. Don’t do the same thing too much.❤️
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A book that I found helpful is Reading Like a Writer by Francine Prose. She talks about remembering what authors do well. I’m reading Andrew Sean Greer’s Less, his character descriptions are amazing, and he’s funny. I just finished Murakami’s Kafka on the Shore and his universal themes abound. I want to do that!!
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Crystal, I’m proud of you! I have a lofty goal to one day complete my memoir. In the meantime I’m enjoying my journey with words. And meeting writers like you and Cheryl and so many more has given me pause in my practice ~to let flow as it needs. Blogging indeed is my practice! I just completed a presentation of the Writing Process that is intended for new THIRD grade audiences. And through it, I realized that I still struggle with the process at times (particularly editing, eduting, editing, lol)…BUT the revisions come from a deeper part of me. I’m gaining writing wisdom and it will all happen when it’s supposed to happen. I can’t WAIT to read your memoir!! Keep up the wonderful work! ❤️🙌🏻
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Thank you, Karla. I had writing in progress, more like essay after essay, and talked of the pieces as a memoir for seven years before I concluded I needed help. I needed more of a narrative thread (and lots of development). I’m with you—it will all happen when it’s supposed to happen, our journeys make us who we are, and lofty goals are good. What lucky third graders to hear your wisdom! Keep up YOUR wonderful work! ❤️
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You’re so welcome 💛 and thank YOU for your kind words of support!! Happy Easter! ✝️💜🤗
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Who knows what perfection is, anyway? I’ve read so-called “classic” books that I didn’t like very much at all. I’m reading Charles Bukowski’s novel titled Pulp. On the dedication page, he says this: “Dedicated to bad writing.” See ya!
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I like Bukowski’s dedication. It’s relatable. I’ve read a Bukowski poem or two and stumbled across a reference of him in the book I’m reading with my seniors now—Andrew Sean Greer’s Less. Anyway, seeing his name again makes me think I should be reading Bukowski.
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I love novels too. Currently I am grasping Richard Branson’s book titled ‘Scew it lets do it” and I have to applaud the writer for such an inspiring and encouraging messages within the chapters😊📙
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I KNOW you will reach your goal, Crystal.😊
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I appreciate you, Dwight! Thank you. I was thinking of you yesterday as I started a purge on my son’s car. Work in progress.
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Best wishes on your writing journey!
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Thank you so much, Michele!
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You are welcome! I can’t wait to read about updates.
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Good for you!
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Thanks, LA. Practice makes progress. One of my latest mottos.
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I like your relaxed attitude toward your revisions. You’ll get that manuscript into shape when you do.
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Thanks, Ally! Not sure how relaxed I feel, but happy I appear that way! You seem to be echoing what I know about perfect timing.
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Thank you for sharing!!.. best of luck with your manuscript… when one deals with life and its challenges on a daily basis, it is hard to concentrate on any one thing… myself, I just sit down with a cup of tea and let my fingers do the walking while my heart does the talking and Que Sera Sera… 🙂
Until we meet again..
May love and laughter light your days,
and warm your heart and home.
May good and faithful friends be yours,
wherever you may roam.
May peace and plenty bless your world
with joy that long endures.
May all life’s passing seasons
bring the best to you and yours!
(Irish Saying)
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Tea and fingers walking and hearts talking—the things that make the writer’s world go round.
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I wanted to look for some wise and true quote to send your way, but the older I get, the more convinced I become, that writing is about patience, discipline, dedication, trusting your gut and your voice, and butt in the chair than anything else! And yes, I’m sure you’re “inching your way to your goal.” Keep at it!
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How many times have I wanted to respond to someone with wise and true words? For me at least, wise and true word take time. I appreciate yours either way, Brian. Thank you!
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I’m with you Crystal … wise words take time, better to steal! Okay, maybe not actual plagiarism, but you know what I mean! Love your blog, thanks for sharing! 🤣😎🤣
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If this post is any indication (and I bet it is), your manuscript will be aWEsOMe! ❤️🦋🌀
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Thanks so much, Sheila. I truly appreciate the kindness!
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Hello Crystal, “Pobodys Nerfect” at least not the first time – keep at it. Check out “On Writing Well” by Willaim Zinsser. Happy Easter. Jerry
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On Writing Well is still on my list. Thanks for the reminder/visit/support! Happy Easter, Jerry!
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Great share my friend 🌹. KEEP it up.
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Thank you so much, V K!
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You’re correct, Crystal, in that no work ever is finished. A surging current of revisions and refinements scoops up all writers, past, present and future. As with life itself, improvements constantly light the horizon. At what point in the perpetual process do you allow others to have a look?
That we, as writers, always can think of a better, more evocative way of expressing ourselves isn’t a weakness, it proclaims faith in our abilities. Yeah, that was a nifty turn of phrase, but I’ll come up with something even better before long.
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So…last spring I received feedback/good advice I haven’t taken yet. Yet. So there’s that. Time to take that step, and then we’ll see. I’m sure I could nitpick forever.
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Indeed perfection comes with practice
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😀 Thanks for visiting!
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What an excellent read Crystal. You have a way with words.
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Thank you for your kindness, 9th period student! I appreciate you for reading and saying so.
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Your writing journey is inspiring – I hope to put my thoughts in book form one day too! 🙂
Love Margaret Atwood’s advice on perfection vs. actually writing.
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Thanks, Jen. Mine started one little essay at a time.
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Great post, Crystal. I really want to know who’s version of “perfect” is the correct one, anyways?
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I’m going with Jesus.
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Reading old drafts is like examining one’s old self, Crystal. A lot would have change, so there’s always a lot to change – to improve – which is always good. It’s when there’s nothing to change that I start shivering.😂 Good luck with the revisions. Can’t wait to read it.
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Thanks so much! This is true. A new perspective with some distance.
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With your resolve, it won’t be difficult reaching the goal! Best of luck ✨
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Kindness much appreciated! Thank you!
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Even in blogging I like to write and step away for a while, then come back to it and re-write it. Blogging is soooo much fun though. Good luck with your book!! It sounds incredible
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Oh, for sure, stepping away is always good. Too bad I don’t always have time! Thanks for the support here LaShelle.
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I can completely understand that! I can also relate but since my blog is my current creative outlet and I am not really doing anything else creatively speaking at the moment, it has helped me learn how to write better by letting it sit on my computer for a day or two before I reread it and post it.
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Great advice for Writing Better!!
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Awesome blog Crystal. I agree with you that blogging is about writing practice , I love to write✍️ blogs weekly too it’s how I perfect my craft and skill.
Good luck with your unpublished memoir, hoping your words revision and prefix becomes a success as you compile the words🙌
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One of my professors said, “Writing is just words in the best order.” That sounds easy. The hard part is finding the best order and all the choices along the way.
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Slow and steady win the race
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Winning!!
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Best wishes for you ❤️
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Thank you so much!!
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I know the feeling.
I took courses, did a few online and then read a few articles but when it came down to it; in order to write good, you have to write.
I don’t think I’m a great writer but I do enjoy it’s delightful endeavor.
Thanks for sharing 👍
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Liking it is key. Delightful endeavor, I agree.
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Thanks so much Crystal for sharing some of your writing journey. Writing better does need to use the concept of “vision.” One needs to aim high in the process. Blessings to your project.
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Thanks for your support, Big Sky! Feeling great about the first twelve pages. The next forty need extra vision.
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Kudos to your perseverance!
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Good luck and you got this!
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Thank you, Alicia! Much appreciated!
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Loved the way you write Cyrstal.
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Thank you so much! I’m still practicing. ❤️
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How do you avoid loosing the plot when you are writing?
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I write nonfiction, so my writing is less plot based. However, once I had a complete draft, I worked on a connecting thread chapter to chapter. I found ideas while reading other books and had a breakthrough while reading Here Is Where We Meet by John Berger. His chapters at a glance weren’t related, yet his connections expert.
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Thank you, I appreciate your response.
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Practice makes perfect sense…..never give up on yourself and your dreams, your happiness matters!!
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I love putting my hands on the keys having absolutely NO idea what I am going to type!
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Even better—realizing you had something to say after all!
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Sounds like perfect steps to creating a book that readers will be bale to pick up and have the pages turn themselves.
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I hope so, Belladonna! Thank you!!
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Awesome. You’ll get there, approaching your manuscript step by step. Best of luck!
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Your kindness much appreciated!
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You’re very welcome.
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One step at a time. That’s all it takes! 💪
As for publishing, you could always self-publish.
I’m sure the community you’ve built here would support! 🤝🤝🤝
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Thank you! I appreciate your support here!
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Crystal, your writing on your blog is so good. I admire your commitment. My understanding from reading Acknowledgements in books is that when the writing is finished, the move toward publication has just begun. Have you seen the original manuscript of A Christmas Carol? It is available on Guttenberg Press and shows that even the great Charles Dickens did a lot of editing!
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Thank you so much, Linda. I haven’t seen the original manuscript of A Christmas Carol, but I love Charles Dickens. What a genius! One of my favorite parts of his life is that he was only in school until age 12 or 13. I’ll have to look up the Gutenberg Press.
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And I didn’t know that. Little known facts about talented individuals with limited education, inability to spell, misunderstood high IQ’s, etc. fascinate me and should speak to the way we treat others and educate our children.
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I agree! A Tale of Two Cities is one of my all-time favorites. I would like to read more Dickens.
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